| | forgive me. i may say too much. i may not make sense. im exhausted. and rightfully so. my eyes shouldn't have the strength to hold themselves open. but my mind is racing so fast, they lift with the mere jolt of adrenaline (or it could still be the 9 cups of coffee that never wore off). i have experienced so much these past few months (as i have stated before) but nothing could have prepared me for what happened last night.
ive been talking a lot about josh lately. he has been on my heart. my mind. my dreams. last night--my reality. breathing my same air. looking me in the eyes for the first time in 2 years. i forgot the ways can't look away. the ways i laugh. the ways i tear up. the ways i loved.
i took a trip to wooster to visit my friends becca and andrew and their newest addition aubrey. it just so happened he was going to be in town this weekend as well. i said we could meet for coffee. we met for repair.
an hour turned into 5 and somewhere along the way my heart lost itself. it was free to roam again. all that extra weight it carried for so long vanished with such simple words. please forgive me. its ok. thank you. lets forget. lets remember. lets figure out. lets close our eyes and hold back those pressing tears. i loved you. with everything i had, i sincerely loved you. im so glad to know you felt the same. healing brought so much peace. comfort. laughter. i love to laugh with you. i love walking around walmart with you. driving with you. talking with you. remembering with you.
applebees turned into our arby's. free coffee and countless pauses in the story. for so long i couldnt imagine why we ever started...last night, i couldn't imagine why we ever stopped. but i think we figured all that we needed to keep peace. give and recieve it. ive missed seeing you too. lets not make it so long for the next time.
*mawie's already cookin and workin on her shove methods.
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| | Posted 9/18/2006 1:11 AM - 47 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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