| | its not even half way through the episode of Extreme Makeover--Home Addition...and im crying. really crying. not just those cute little girly tears. im in full sob. i can't get through an episode without at least a few sweet tears( but 9 times out of 10 its the sobbing). what a reality check. how humbling. here i am feeling sorry for myself that i can't sit face to face with him. that he is busy with school and i just want to talk with him. and this poor wonderful women threw herself over her 2 boys when a tornado came through and crushed their house. she is confinded to a wheelchair and they lost everything. people thought they were dead. im no good. im really no good.
life, however. life is good. i find myself feeling normal again. funny again. wanting to serve again. life isn't about me. i am reminded every day. the more i learn about the people i love and that love me, the more i realize how unworthy i am. and its not the i dont deserve happiness or woe is me. its this overwhelming sense of gratitude. the more i realize that its not about things, its about people. i realize not everyone has what i do. i realize i need to share it more.
just now (in the show) the family is getting ready to see their house and the husband got down on his knees to be at the same level as his wife. small gesture. but to me, im speechless. something else i need to work on.
thee roomies and i chose to be 3 blind mice in honor of our newest roommate...yes, the palace has a mouse. we were stuck on the couch for an hour that fateful night of the sighting. what do you do? call every boy you know and sound really hopeless.
we won most creative. oh yes. see how we run.
a bunch of us played flag football all afternoon. the smell reminded me. im going to go take care of that.
im out.
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| | Posted 10/8/2006 9:06 PM - 40 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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